last days had showed me that things had changed and i need to do something with my life.
this is not that i give up drawing and art. i hope. but i need to quit the fandom for some time. and stop drawing fanart. lately i hadn’t time for this and that was worried me so much, hurted me. and drawing didn’t bring me the peace and fulfillment as i thought. new drawings didn’t heal the wounds. there was only dissapointment and pain of infimity. that i can’t make myself feel better as i did to all of you. i can’t heal myself by my own pieces.
so yes, i’m leaving. leaving to find something i’ve lost or just passed on my way. i would like to go foward with some things, but i know that to reach something i need to turn back.
the other reason is that as much i love to be in fandom and all of you, sometimes there are things which make me feel uncomfortable. fans do differend things and i need to take a break from it. because there i some things i don’t like. and i don’t want to waste my health by getting irritated by them.
i don’t know if it’s artblock or exhaustion, the thing is i need some time for myself.
the last words are the heaviest. i’m a bit scared of your reactions and i don’t want to make you sad because of my leaving and no new art.
thank you so much for being here. for every kind and nice word, comment or idea. you know that i’m nothing without us. i never knew that there is a place i can meet so many amazing and wonderful people. i don’t forget how many amazing friends i found here and how much good emotions and feelings you gave me. tkanks for enjoyed with me all happy moments and been support when i was sad and your patience. you always be there. and i’m grateful for it.
so again, thank you so much for all. i’m so glad i could made art for you and share it with you.
guys stop being so adorable and wonderful! please! you’re making me feel so confused!
i’ve came back home and you know what i found?
amazing late birthday gift from lonelyfullmoon! thank you so so much dear! <3
just look at them! <3 let me die.i love them so much, they are adorable and ąśdfghjkł but please, stop sending me all those gifts! because i have nothing to repay you for such wonderful things!
seriously, this makes me thinking of running away from tumblr. too much acts of kindness and love. it brings me panic attacks.
i need to leave.
'don't move kee…'
'but it hurts…'
'just hold on. it will stop in few minutes.'
so sorry about my modern au spam.
i’ll be off for a week because of my volunteering.
see you guys!
well philip, i’m afraid keelan isn’t in the mood
my lovely little sis is downloading a game on my computer and it require all its attention that I can’t use other programmes. god why. i’m back to paper and pencils mood.
my sexuality is dean o’gorman’s hair
modern au again.
so where did i stoped with description of this story?
after the trip, when keelan and philip finally descover what is betwen them, kee ends his university and starts to work in game desing company. they decide to live together. but philip is often out of home. his job require traveling to differend places. long distance relationship isn’t good for them and keelan is starting to sinking into games again. philip can’t let that happened. he quit his job.
of course taline want to help both of them. her boyfriend, leo, don’t like her friends.
still working on it. some scenes (that in park) is from this part where they’re aren’t together yet.
more sketches to my modern au fic. heh.
i had to made that fog because this is not nsfw blog. so sorry about that. (i mean this scene, not the fog >D)
today i’m going to see how to train your dragon 2!
another colour palette meme is in queue.
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Some details of my dreadlocks